The Agassiz project presentation was cool. They used dancers and stuff and had some power point presentations. I liked it. Afterwards, we all sprinted to the drama workshop to see the final performance. It was hardcore. They turned off all the lights and were seated all around the room. It was pretty cool. Then we hung out at the fish pond for a while until the orchestra concert. We sat two rows behind NC's family. We looked at them and realized that it could only be NC's family. I know all of their names. Rock on! They have cool names. Then we hung out on the patio until Curfew. As I have stated before, I love hanging out. We played ERS and solitaire and listened to CDs. Then when we got back to our dorms, Monica had a praying mantis in her room. It was huge, but cute. It was staring at us. Katherine saved it and we put it outside in the bushes. That makes me happy that we saved an endangered species. Then NC and I stayed up until like 12:30. This morning was our last class with Uncle Charlie. We just IM-ed and checked emails and stuff. Then we had our last Area 3. We took some pictures. Then I packed up some of my stuff and then went over to Megan's room to hang out. Then we hung out and took pictures and ate Ice Cream with the science kids. It makes me kinda sad, but the fact that we're leaving hasn't really hit me yet.

This is probably the last post at GSW, because I'm gonna be hanging out with my friends until I leave. Adios!

As my days here at GSW are coming to an end, I am saddened. I am sad that I won't get to hang out as much as I can here. People aren't as readily accessible to hanging out at home. Last night, we just took my CD player out on Clewell Patio and played cards and listened to Rooney and 13 going on 30 soundtrack and Nickel Creek. It was awesome. I love hanging out. I'm also sad that I won't be meeting so many way cool new people. I'll miss that. I'll miss these people! It's kinda depressing. Today was our last Area 2 class. We had our last discussion about schools and what we'll miss and our system of distributing money that we came up with before. Then we took some group pictures. It was depressing. I liked that class a lot. We had some good discussions.

Today was our last 4th period "Philosophy of Science" class. We talked about conversation patterns and about how the general male way of talking is very athoritative and it is competetive and tries to establish a hierarchy while the female way is to relate to personal experiences and tries to establish community. After we pointed this out and had discussions, we kept finding examples. I was talking about my personal experience and Christian interrupted me to say something. It was classic. I couldn't get my point across, though, because Patrick started jumping up and down because he found it hilarious.

Today also was the Science and Mathematics Academic Fair. Our mirror group did a poster. Some people were genuinely curious, some were just too confused to care, and some thought our "baffling question" was totally obvious. But it was fun. We were going to play Christina Aguilera's song "Reflections" from the Mulan soundtrack in the background. Get it? Mirrors... Reflection... right. haha. Some other groups did shoelaces and some did bubbles (Megan's group) and some math kids did some cool stuff with "Six Degrees of Separation" and the Rubik's cube (they were showing a clip of a guy completing it in 18 seconds) and the physics of Billiards. It was pretty cool. I saw the guy solve the Rubik's cube while I was sitting right there. He told me that they provide new Rubik's cubes at competitions that are already greased up, for optimal speed. It was awesome. The knot poster was cool, because two of the kids that got assigned knots (randomly) were Eagle Scouts. There were tons of cool knots. Then I started talking to those guys about how I wish I could have been a Boy Scout because I want to burn stuff. Steele said that there was a coed thing that Boy Scouts does called "Ventures" for ages 14 to 20. I wish. I think I've already blogged about the injustices of Girl Scouts, so I'll spare you. Just check the archives. So that was a fun time. We took a cool picture of our group. Scott, Meredith, and I stood together and Meredith and I held a mirror in between us. They took the picture so you could see Eddie's reflection through the mirror. It rocked. Way to integrate the mirrors in to the group picture. Because they are a part of our group. Is it bad that I broke 2 mirrors through the course of this project? Maybe. But I sure hope not.

Now I have to go to another Agassiz project (this time it's an "Optional" Seminar- it's not optional for science kids). Then I think there's an orchestra concert and then we get to hang out for a while. I hope. So Adios, amigos!

So I did end up reading Jane Eyre, and then I went to the Academic fair for Social Science and English and Spanish. I learned some about Hispanic culture and had some good food and heard some good poems. Then I hung out in my room because I didn't want to see A Beautiful Mind. I felt like a loser. I didn't go to swing dancing and then I hung out in the computer lab until I saw that nobody was getting off any time soon and then I checked the action in Babcock basement and then I finally found a home in our basement watching LOTR 2. You can always count on LOTR. Then it was the final night of MSCL! It was sad, but I guess it was the only way they could have ended the season. Too bad Claire Danes decided to quit the show after only one season. That is depressing. But I still love the show! It was fun times and good memories. 

Today was a good day. I got to write a letter to myself that Tim will send to me in a year. (Area 3) It made me happy. Then I had to do an evaluation. I hate evaluations. They make me feel weird. I just don't like them. And I also had to do one for Science. It was so general and open ended and not fun. But that's ok. I'm all better now.

I can't wait to see all my friends again. Cheerio friends and Home friends and Church friends and friends friends. I miss them. But not too bad. I'm still sad to be leaving here. And when I get back to my friends I'll realize that I want to see my GSW friends. Darn it. I don't want to get my hopes too high about the greatness of this school year. It probably won't be that great. I think that this year will be different in that I will be able to talk myself out of my paranoia and depression more so than last year. I'm glad. I just haven't seen most of my friends in like 7 weeks. And that makes me sad.

So I'm gonna go make the most of these last few days here at GSW! ahh

Yesterday was fun. There was a thing that they called "Arts Happening" at night. The kids from instrumental music and dance and art collaborated and split up into groups and did very interesting presentations all over campus. It was fun. Then a lot of folks went to watch Carlos Fuentes play his "Fantasy" song that he composed while here at GSW. Everybody was blown away and amazed. I was kinda amazed, but I found it kinda chordy and redundant at times. Still, it was way better than anything I could have done. Way to go, Carlos. Then we had an informal discussion about college life for women in our parlor. It was kinda funny. I'm now tired of talking about college. I'll think about it later. Then we watched MSCL. 2nd to last one ever! Ahhh! It was very good. I'm excited and sad about the last one. I can't wait to watch this late at night on Noggin. Until the school year starts.
 
Today was fun too. I guess. Just regular. We went on a walking tour for the "Structural Cracks" agassiz group. We got to play Red Rover for like 2 seconds. I got to go over. And I broke through. Rock on! Then we had Panera in Area 2!!! I had the most awesome Tuna Salad Sandwich ever. And then we discussed our economic systems that we made up, and the one we chose ended up screwing everybody over. Someone who was arrested but not convicted of murder got the most money. It wasn't a very good system. It was almost too unbiased. At least the Panera was good! It was the best meal I've had in a while. I had Fruit Loops for B-fast and Dinner today. That probably isn't healthy. Oops! Then in Charlie's class, I found some more GSW/TWB connections. I love those. After Charlie's, I watched a movie called "No Man's Land." It was funny and depressing all at the same time. Too bad. Now I'm going to go read some Jane Eyre.
 
Word around campus is that our AP scores are back. I don't know mine yet because my parentals are in SC until Wednesday night. So I will be kept waiting until then. But I'm not that curious. It's funny hearing the buzz about school and AP scores and stuff. I find it funny, at least. Ok I must go. Adios!

So I didn't end up swimming laps or taking naps, but I did read Jane Eyre. I read like 40 or 50 pages. It is very interesante. I took a 30 minute nap after reading some at like 5:00, and it totally made me feel spaced out. I went to dinner all by my lonesome partly because I was spaced out and partly because I was spaced out and partly because when I read, I really immerse myself into the story. So when I'm not reading, I'm still kind of in their world. I don't feel lonely. Then NC came up and hung out. We had ice cream on Clewell patio and we hung out on the grass. Then I hung out with Brooke and Christine and some chorus folks on Clewell patio. It was tons of fun! I love hanging out. It's very fun times. So then I had to go to the Dance performance. It was really interesting and good. We were all sitting in circles on the gym floor and they came up and hugged you or something. You had to be there to get it. Then at 9:30 or so we watched School of Rock in the Gym. That movie is freakin hilarious. I like the part when Jack Black says: "The man ruined the ozone, burned down the Rainforest, picked up Shamu and put her in a chlorine tank." Hilarious. I actually stayed awake! I'm proud of myself. After curfew, we watched My So Called Life. I love that show. I went to bed at like 1:30, which is an awesome time to go to bed. You aren't as tired as you think in the morning!
 
So this morning I went to Pinedale. It was awesome. Totally awesome. Also, the drummer was too hot to handle. That didn't hurt. But the actual spiritual part was soo cool. I loved it. And then, after church, Courtney came to take me out to lunch! She got lost for a little bit, but she totally asked for directions. (way to go, Courts! you rock!) We got lost on the way home from Applebees, but it's all good. I got a camera at a CVS on the exit that we turned around at. (Sorry, I just ended my sentence with a preposition) After Courtney left, I hung out with Christine and Brooke for a few minutes. It was fun! I love those kids! Then I went back to my room and read some more Jane, and then Jessica from next door asked me if I wanted to eat Pizza with her. I did. So we had some thin crust Ham and Pineapple. Awesome. Then at 6:00 I made some posters with my Agassiz group. It was totally fun hanging out and making posters. We are so lazy and so silly, but we finished and it's not due 'till Thursday. It was way fun. Then I hung out with Ashley (and the Drama kids... kinda... but not really because they are an elitist cult) on the lawn. We did some cartwheels, we hung out, it was fun. Then I watched the end of Remember the Titans, and then I watched this way psychedellic band, "Art Lord and the Self Portraits". They were so weird. They're probably still playing. I took a picture. Then we hung out in here adn played some twister. Fun times. I had some good phone convos with my parentals and my sisters. I've been having some good phone convos lately. I like it.
 
So sorry for that rundown of what I did. You might be bored. Oops. It was an awesome weekend, compared to the other weekends. Well, the other weekends added up. This one had the best overall score. I'm starting to get a little sad that we have to leave on Saturday. I love these people here. I like meeting new people and hanging out with them. It is so fun. I am looking forward to school too. But I know that I will probably get sick of school really quick. But I never really got out of the school groove, so I'll hit the ground running at the beginning of the school year. You know, when everybody else is remarking on how they forgot how to write and stuff. Well I'm gonna go hang out or something. Haha.

Supersize Me was really good. Funny and good and eye opening. It makes me want to eat fast food less often. It was great that we walked there. At least I got some excersize. But we ate pizza afterwards. Haha. I decided that if I lived in California, when I ate fast food it would only be In-N-Out. They are respectable in the Fast Food world- according to the book "Fast Food Nation." Way to go. After the movie, I could have seen "Bowling for Columbine" but I didn't want two shockumentaries in one day. So I was going to go swim laps, but when I got to the pool I found out it was closed. So I hung out some more with the Spanish chicas. After room check I watched "Requiem for a Dream" NC and Helena and some other girls. It's very depressing. But interesting. Helena's words of wisdom afterwards: "Don't do drugs, kids." So true. I expected to have bad dreams afterwards, but I didn't remember them if I did. Thank goodness. I got out of both of my classes early today. Fun times! I have absolutely nothing to do this afternoon. I'm going to read and swim laps and take naps. Sounds like fun. I might also watch some TDF live coverage and stuff. I don't know. Adios!

T-shirts and designs have taken over Governer's School West. They are everywhere. We decided on our Science T-Shirt (i did the bubble letters). It is green with white writing. I'm excited! I'm only allowing myself to get three shirts. The GSW class shirt, the science shirt, and the MSCL shirt. There is a slight dilemma, in that I ordered a medium for the class shirt. It is probably going to be too big, because Leslie's small from last year was pretty big. So I ordered a small in the science shirt. Maybe one will be too big, or one will be too small. I need to go change my size in the MSCL shirt. I originally said medium. I think it is going to be pink with black print, but some people don't like that. I think it should be burgundy like Angela's hair. It is more 90's. The GSW class shirt is kinda cheezy, but I had to get that one. I mean, it is the main shirt. I'm buying way less than other people. Some people are getting like 8. Holy cow. Seriously- that is too many shirts in one summer.
 
The t-shirt phenomenon is affecting me, too. While I was thinking about the Environmental Club (which I'm thinking of bringing back to MAHS this year) and stuff we could do, I thought to myself: "we could totally make t-shirts!" That would be pretty awesome. I think the whole idea of an Environmental club is pretty awesome. I realized that I would like one when I kept trying to convince Interact club to do a project to save the rainforests. I can't wait. yay!!! I might have too much homework and stuff, but since I'm not doing volleyball...
 
Jessica said I should make a superhero for myself. I always tear down the signs for things that have already taken place. I love ripping them down. Especially those Chorus Groupies ones. They are everydangwhere. I am keeping the campus clean and flyer free. Yay!
 
I'm gonna go se "Supersize Me?" today. I'm excited! I wanted to see that. Crystal said that Alex said it was gross. I think it is gonna be pretty good. Oh yeah- and I gave in and bought the Summer Book. I guess I want the zine and I do want a place to put my pictures. Well I have to go put it in my room before we leave for the movie. Hasta luego!
 
Oh yeah- and Earth was pretty good. So was Pico vs. Island Trees. I got a sticker! They have a CD! They open for Dave Matthews! They went to GSW 2 years ago! Weird...

this is so freaking exciting! i can change colors! i can bold things. i can italicize more easily. i can number! change alignment! bullet! parenthesize! add pictures! IT IS ALMOST TOO MUCH TO HANDLE!

"i can quote things"

amazing. simply amazing. now i'm going to write my first real blog with these enhancements. yay!

So I didn't post yesterday. Sorry about that! Yesterday was pretty good. I wasn't as depressed. Classes were classes, and I didn't go to a 4:00 seminar. I did, however, go to a 7:00 seminar. It was: Right & Wrong: 20th Century Philosophical Ethics. It was pretty good. He is a funny guy, and he is easy to understand. (David Bruzina, an area 2 teacher). Then it was time for the Final Open Mic night. Hilarious. There was some pretty singing and stuff, and then there was the funny stuff. "Rectal Thermometers" performed. It was a bunch of really cool guys with really cool hair. There were no words. Just awesome guitar and drumming. Simon said it was a song for lovers. "If you're with the one you love, let them know. If you're not with the one you love, love the one you're with." Something like that. Oh it was awesome. Almost more awesome than the actual playing was the "mosh pit." While moshing, Logan tried (unsuccessfully) to crowd surf, and Mikey fell down on to me and Jessica. NC put her head on his shoulder, and he scooted over. What a character. When Mikey was falling, it took a really long time but we couldn't do anything about it. Haha. Then Kaila and Mikey and Alex did an interpretive dance/reading of "I Believe I can Fly". Funny stuff. It was an awesome last Open Mic.

The past two days of class we've been discussing why the sky is blue. that is a total of 2 and 1/2 hours discussing this. It is very interesting. And confusing. And we have homework for it. But it's just a response. Not that bad. The time flies by really fast in that class. Ryan is very opinionated and loud and persistant about his point. Annoying at times, but overall it's pretty interesting.

Today we had to take our class picture for the zine, and it was chaos. They had the girls wear black shirts and the guys wear black shirts. I think they were trying to pull some order and chaos theme off, but it was generally not cool. They put us in the oven of campus. No ventilation. Just a patio closed in on 3 sides. It is too bad, because it was such a pleasant day today! So pleasant. So sad. So... zine. I think I'm not going to get the zine. Maybe I will. I have to limit these things. I'm getting only 3 t-shirts. You have to have self control with these things.

Today, I'm going to see "Earth" (instead of Chorus Groupies Unleashed). It is a movie. Rated R. For sex and violence. Yessss. Just kidding. I've heard it's supposed to be good. I like these movies we've been seeing. Except last Sunday's stuff.

So I wasn't as depressed after I called home. I was writing some letters and had to get some adresses. My telephone conversations have made a transformation from akward "I miss you"'s and "How's life at home?"'s and it has turned into good conversations. About normal things. I like it better now.

(Last thing- I swear!) I feel as if I've "cheapened" the quality of my blog, because I don't really comment on certain things, I just make it a journal. I guess this is so I can remember things. I promise I'll have thought provoking blogs in the school year. Because nothing really happens. Not enough for a whole blog. So I just wanted to tell you guys that.

Courtney! Call my cell so I know what time you're coming on Sunday. So I can take a nap. Or something.

It seems like I go through some sort of loss every summer for the past few years. Two summers ago, Dr. Burke died. I didn't really deal with it because I was at cheerio. I just pushed it to the back of my mind and didn't really think about it. Then last year Joey ran away, also while I was at cheerio. I am really sad that Joey ran away, but I never really thought about that one either. I was there with him since he was a puppy, and nobody else in my family liked him. It makes me sad. This summer, Will is moving to California. It's not like he's moving away forever, and I am going to see him for Thanksgiving and stuff. It just makes me sad. We ate at the Tavern today. The food was late, and I had class, so I had to leave early and it totally depressed me. I just said goodbye to Will at the restaurant and then had to leave him there eating and stuff. That really depressed me. Then we watched "Il Postino" and Mario had to say goodbye to Pablo. It made me cry. Goodbyes depress me. Right now it is raining really hard outside and I don't have any rain protection gear. It is kinda sad that GSW will be over in 2 weeks, but it has been great so far. Courtney is coming up to visit me on Sunday!!! Yay!!! (any time b/w 12:45 and 6). Oh yeah, we spent a whole class period discussing one Fermi question in 4th Period today. Haha. I doodled and just listened to what people had to say. I lost some brain cells because of the Dry Erase markers. Whew. They stink. Oh yeah! Here's my schedule:

AP English- Goldwasser
AP Calculus- Gray
AP Biology- Bodnar
Spanish 3- Castillo

AP English- Goldwasser
AP Calculus- Gray
AP Biology- Bodnar
Earth & Environmental Science- ?

Holy cow. Fun times. haha.

It seems that when I'm feeling a little sad and I have the radio playing, I always hear the same song. It makes me even more sad. I hate it when that happens. Today was pretty uninteresting. Yesterday, I went to church at Pinedale. It was really good. They have an 11:00 worship service for teens! It is youth led, and then the youth minister speaks at the end. The kids were very welcoming and had conversations with us. The youth pastor, on the other hand, didn't even acknowledge us. His 'sermon' was a little weird too. He was talking about how he doesn't have any time because he has so much to do and he wants to meet with the youth and stuff. It wasn't very good. And, they kept using the word "Extreme" which, according to Best Month Ever, has reached the "End of the Trend". When it is used for deodorants, it has gone too far. But everything else was really good. I'm going there next week. Plus, if I ever want to come down one time, I'm not that far away! But I like my church a ton a ton a ton. Anyways, after church and lunch, I went to see "Breathless", only Matt's tape broke. So we ended up watching this hecka weird movie called "Personas". Totally weird. Nobody understood it. Then at 7:00 I went to watch "Contempt". Holy cow. They spent 3/4 of the movie asking each other why she didn't love him anymore. It was ridiculous. Then after that movie, I went back to my room and organized stuff and read some stuff. Pretty low key.

I was pretty depressed yesterday. I don't really know why. I guess it's because my friends and my sister get to go to Sharptop cove, and because Will is moving to California, and probably because of that weird Personas movie. I wasn't depressed before it. But I was a hermit afterwards. It was annoying. I wish I wasn't depressed. It's so.... depressing. Whatever. I'm gonna go play cards tonight. Premier of I love the 90's is today! Courtney's taping it so I can go to TA/C-Student Feud. (Think Family Feud) If it's loser, I'm gonna go do something else. Adios! Hasta manana!

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Like Water for Chocolate is one funny film. We watched it as the finale in our "Latin American Film Festival." It stars the girl that plays a mexican girl on Bottle Rocket. There were some hillarious scenes. At one point, when we thought something bad was going to happen, I said "Oh Shit." and then Megan said "Well, Damn." and then Jessica wanted to feel cool so she said "Hell." Haha. Then I would look at Jessica and say "manana" and she would crack up. It was hilarious.

While on our way back, It turned out to be really windy. Really windy. I knew a storm was brewing. Keith, Jessica, Julie, and I hung out on the sidewalk because we love storms. It was thundering and a siren was going and I could hear sounds from a racetrack that sounded like a tornado. It was creepy and way cool all at the same time. It started raining, so we stood in the doorway of Clewell, feeling the really really nice cool breeze. I went upstairs and then it started thundering really close. One was like right outside our window. It was really really loud. I heard some great thunders today. I'm very happy. Then Gina, Adrienne, and I watched the lightning from the windows. It was awesome! I want to be a storm chaser, but not really. It seems a little dangerous.

Then we got all dressed up for the Masquerade Ball. Basically a regular dance with costumes. I'm wearing one of Mom's old dresses. When people ask me who I'm supposed to be, I just hold a peace sign and say: "A 70's hippie?" It works. They don't ask anymore. There are a lot of 80's chicks out there. They are so cute! Lindsay and Jana are the cutest. Brooke looks pretty cute too. I love the 80's. I wish I could have pulled it off. But I took pictures. Now I need a new camera! Darn it. So I'm off to go to sleep because I have church tomorrow, and I have to wake up at 9:00. AM. So I guess this is goodnight!

The seminar about college life for women was informative. I had not thought of some of the things they brought up. I am still looking forward to college. They say the seminar is going to be ongoing, like if you want to know more they might have hall meetings or something. They talked about eating disorders and date rape and alcohol and sororoties and stuff like that. They emphasized the point that nobody is watching you, and it is weird to have all of that responsibility. One has to become good at scheduling. And one has to learn one's study habits. They also said that procrastination that worked in high school does not work in college. Like I said, I'm still looking forward to college. (in spite of some of the things that may go on) I still don't know where I want to go to college, but I still have a little bit of time to decide.

After the seminar, we waited in line for "A Bird of Prey." We got in! It was very sad and depressing. I just wanted to give the actors a big hug after it was all done. They looked so sad! I guess that means that they were good at their job. Haha. After that, we went and chilled on Clewell patio. Kaila and Bridgit and Keith had their guitars, and sometimes we were all singing along. I started making up a song about how depressing it was that all of these couples were forming and holding hands and stuff. Kaila took over because I ran out of lyrics and she had the guitar.

After curfew I went to Katherine's room to watch MSCL. Yay! It was a creepy Halloween episode. I love that show. I'm all involved now, and I can't seem to stop! Angela and RayAnn and Ricky and Jordan and Angela's parents... it's so great!

Then I went to bed and had a bad night's sleep. I woke up at like 1 or something and then woke up again at 4:44 (i don't know if it was really 4:44, I just remember seeing a lot of 4's when i looked at my clock). I was so dang hot and I couldn't get back to sleep. It was really really really hot. I couldn't stand it! That's one thing that I won't miss. The heat. Seriously.

So today Maggie may come and visit me and Megan. Yay! Other than that, there's nothing else to do. Except the Orchestra concert and the Masquerade ball tonight. Fun times. Okey dokey. Nothing else to say. ttfn!

Hello, all! Yesterday I went to see the Drama performance: "War Daddy." It was depressing, because it was about children fighting a war of which nobody knows the origin. They were really good. Some of them were better than others. The kids that played the "twins" were perfect. The guy who did a creepy laugh was really good too. Tonight is the other performance by the rest of the drama kids. It is called "A Bird of Prey." After the play last night we went to Clewell patio and heard "Susan and the Wise Men," a bluegrass band made up of faculty members. It's funny, because the only girl in the band's name is Susan Wiseman. Haha. It was really good! I took some pictures. I need to get better at taking pictures. I like taking snapshots. I can't wait until I get my digital camera. I always take bad pictures and wish that I could delete them. I can't wait for its arrival. So that was fun times. Today was run for the borders. I didn't get anything, but I had fun absorbing the atmosphere of Great Outdoor provisions. I also had some good pizza. Right now I have to leave for a seminar for girls about college life. fun times. hasta manana!

It's college week here at GSW, and I've been thinking about my future. I went to a seminar where TA/Cs talked about their college experiences and we could ask them questions if we wanted. There were some interesting points. The only thing I've really discovered is that I want to study abroad, preferably in Australia or Costa Rica. I've also thought about doing something with environmental science. That interests me. There was a college fair in the Cold Gym today, and I got info from Elon, Duke, and Wake. I didn't get Carolina stuff because I already went to Carolina 101. I forgot that it was college day when I was getting dressed, and I ended up wearing my Carolina shirt. Haha. I wore my backpack on my front rather than my back because I didn't want the other colleges to get jealous. There is a seminar for just girls to ask questions about college tomorrow, and I'm going to that too. College seems exciting. I can't believe I'll be going in a little more than a year. Weeeeird. But cool! I'm out.

Today the East NS kids came over to watch Neal's talk. They are very "snubby". We decided that they probably think of West as the "South" and East as "North". If we are using the Civil War as a reference. Damn Yankees. I hate it when people try to make themselves sound better than other people. They were telling us all the reasons East was better. I don't really care anymore. I like it here, and I like the people, and I'm having fun. I'm also kinda depressed and sad and feeling random. But I do have a good feeling about the upcoming school year. And college. We had a seminar today where the TA/Cs talked about college and answered any questions we had about college and choosing a college and what you do while you're there. It was good. Tomorrow there aren't any seminars, but there will be representatives from colleges in the Hot Gym. Maybe I'll get some free stuff! Haha. I'm also going to go see the play tomorrow. Those drama kids are very elitist. They are an elitist cult. Haha. They really are! They assimilated right into the East people. But they are good actors. Well I'm gonna go to sleep now. Ta-ta for now!

I miss watching "Le Tour De France". I miss Lance and Jan and everybody else. I'm wearing my Lance bracelet that says "LIVESTRONG". It was Dad's, but he gave it to me. I like it! As well as being a cool accessory, it supports Lance's foundation. You go, Lance.

So I'm back at Gov's School. It is weird how quickly I've gotten back into the routine. I'm back in the flow. I can't believe it's already halfway over! It makes me sad in some ways, but at least I've enjoyed my first three weeks. I'm glad that I'm making the most of this stuff.

I'm gonna go listen to Paul Simon in my sweltering dorm room. It's sweltering. Hot as hades. Very very hot. The fan doesn't cut it.

My So Called Life tonight! Yay!

I have watched a lot of movies this weekend. I thought I'd tell you which ones. Friday: Spiderman 2. Saturday: Pretty in Pink, Mass Appeal (actually it was a play up at Levering Orchard), and Donnie Darko. Sunday: Zoolander. Monday: Donnie Darko again (actually i'm going to go watch that after i'm done blogging...). That's a lot! I went up to cheerio yesterday to see the fireworks. The actual fireworks were kinda lame, but I got to see all my old buddies. Yay!!! I can't wait for next year and all of the JCA reunions. I'm an honorary JCA. I need to get on the ball with these reunions.

That brings me to my second point. I am quitting Volleyball. I realized that my schedule is really hard and I don't really like v-ball all that much. Not enough to sacrifice study time or sleep. So that's that. The end of my v-ball career. Too bad. Now I'm actually kinda looking forward to school! Senior parking! Seeing everyone again! Fun times! Football Games! Busch Gardens! (that's before school starts... oops) So I'm going to go watch Donnie Darko again (for the 2nd time). I want to see it again before I have to return it to blockbuster. ttfn!

So I went to bed at like 10 or so last night because I couldn't stand being up any longer. This morning, Jill woke me up and informed me that I had to take her to work. At 8 o-clock. I haven't slept past 9 in 3 weeks, and I was rather tired. When I get tired, I get emotional very easily. So I started crying and told mom that I haven't slept in in 3 weeks and so she said she would take Jill. I feel bad about it, because now my conscience is getting louder. It told me that it was kinda bratty to just cry my way out of my job. I also felt sad that the first day back I have to drive, like I can't get a break of it. I can't escape! I still feel like a brat. I hate feeling like a brat. But I ended up going back to sleep and waking up at 11:20. Holy cow. That's almost 13 and 1/2 hours of sleep! Ahhh! Too much to handle!!! I was hecka tired yesterday. I had stayed up really late the night before and it was weird to be home. Hopefully I am rested and will return to my regular, likeable self. We'll see.

The Chorus Concert last night was very interesting. I really liked the boys' performance of a Japanese song. It was very very coool. (it even deserved an extra o!) This morning, I did my presentation in the Chad's class. Mom came to watch. It was fun times! Then we went to see if the chorus people were going to sing the Japanese song again, but they weren't, so we packed up some stuff for the weekend and then watched the Drama skits. They were hecka awesome. Once at home, I felt a little weird. First of all, I am apparently allergic to cats, but since I'm home all the time I have built up a tolerance. This tolerance dissapeared because I was gone for three weeks, and now I am being attacked by a runny nose and watery/itchy eyes. It started at about six, and is still going strong. We went to see Spiderman 2 (very good) and I was sneezing and sniffling the whole time. It sucks. And I'm feeling a little weird also because I kinda feel out of place. My sister has been sleeping in my bed and using my bathroom while I've been gone. I understand why, I just feel kinda pushed out a little bit. My brother has been using my car, and my parents are doing little to stop him. They say they don't want him to use it, but that's the extent of their control. "He just takes it." Whatever. My sisters and I got mad at each other after the movie and then my dad gave us a guilt trip about his spending 30 dollars on us for a movie and we immediately start bickering in the car. I feel like crap, and Jill basically tells me I don't have a right to say so. My mom is trying to make me decide between Cheerio, England, and Hawaii next summer. Holy cow. And I'm contemplating the pros and cons of actually playing volleyball this year. There is only one pro: It would be sad to not have 4 years of a sport on my college application. And the fact that I have some sort of obligation to play. Uggh. I'm feeling totally selfish right now, but I feel kinda like I have to. I hate knowing that I'm feeling selfish. When I'm thinking these glorious thoughts about everyone being unfair to me and not allowing me to be who I really am and all that beautiful stuff, I am also thinking that it is only half true. Way to spoil my own fun. So people are mean sometimes. I am mean too! I can't control myself. I wish I would stop. Ughh. I need to sleep. And take an allergy pill.

So I'm skipping the dance again. Only this time it's for real. It stinks like feet and b.o. in the gym and the songs suck. So I'm gonna go chill on the patio. It's more fun that way. Nothing special happened today. I watched Baraka. It was very very good and interesting. Excellent cinematography. I'm coming home tomorrow for the weekend! Yay!