TBT!!!!!! I am such a pack rat for notes & mementos- I just found this flier in my teaching notes/memories binder from when Pringle went missing while I was student teaching. Turns out she was just chillin with some rando Carrboro couple & their rabbit, lol. I love memories!!!!! And I love Pringle.
We got Byron's Mom a peony arrangement for Mother's Day and it's still going so strong and is so pretty. I love flowers!!!• • • House things are falling into place!!! I'm about to own a house with my Swtbb!!!! There are only 2 more school days that I'm going to attend!!! Summer is so close!!!!! Omg!!!!!!!!
bOdY PoSi PoSt!!!! I'm not that body positive these days though I feel like I'm trying to be. I'm definitely at the highest weight I've ever been, but I also have the best work/life balance I've ever had??? And I had salads for lunch like infinity more times this semester than I ever had in the past??? I'ma try to do a 90-day-yoga challenge, by body-posi yoga friends @mynameisjessamyn & @nolatrees, but I still balk at seeing my body move in the mirror. Like, I want to *fix* it, but I feel like that's not the right outlook. My body isn't broken, and it is wonderful and strong and holds me up every day!!! I'm hoping to aim for health and less for weight, so I think I'ma just rock leggings and flowy skirts so I don't have to face the weight for the summer. Also I'm gonna try to learn to cook so I don't eat pizza as much. Also this may or may not have been inspired by the classic "Ms. Refvem are you pregnant?" question from a student that is a once-a-semester guarantee. 🤦🏻♀️💪🏻💕🤸🏻♀️
Been thinking about how to feel two feelings at once without labeling one as *bad* and the other as *good*. I think I do this as a part of my enfJ personality (emphasis on the J) to help me judge the way forward so I can make a decision & move on. However, I don't have to apply that mindset to every decision. Ex: things are pretty much going forward on our house, so I'm feeling really nostalgic & sad to leave our current neighborhood & little house. But I'm also excited to move to a new place and move on to a new phase of adulthood!!! Part of me wants to shut down the sad part or not start feeling the happiness part to help me feel better about the decision, but another part of me thinks it's ok to feel both feelings at the same time. Idk. • • • This is not a pink filter- we have a grow light on our lemon tree that is BRIGHT PINK from 7:30am to 5:30pm every day 🌳🍋💕
Thinkin about mothers and the older I get I'm like ... wait, what? My mom was a human like I am a human yet she managed to give her full self to care for FIVE completely independent human beings? And she somehow holds us together all these years later? Like she somehow manufactured a family dynamic that made us be 100% ourselves and 100% dependent on the love and community of our immediate family? And she kept her sense of self and remained silly and loving through all that? That's amazing. It's unreal. It's magical. I hope I can be as authentic and legit as this one!!!! Xoxoxo love u Jobabes, I'm always in awe of you!!!!
No filter on the beautiful night sky at Surf Club 🏄🏻♀️• • • Byron and I had the most pleasant evening!!! I've been feeling a deep exhaustion both from my difficult semester and from the house search... I've just been feeling like a blob & all I've been up for doing after work is bingeing TV shows. But Byron suggested we ride bikes downtown, so we did! We got sandwiches at Lucky's then took them to Surf Club to eat them and then I taught him how to play Mille Bornes, a French card game about racing cars (? Lol). I'm so happy he didn't let me stay all scrumplt up on the couch!!! 💕🚴🏻♀️🌇
NOTES ARE MY LOVE LANGUAGE I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
Today we had a walk-in at school to send a message that our schools deserve more!! NC really needs some education love from the higher ups, like for Real. Mainly while standing out there I kept watching kids get off the bus and was thinking about that experience that frames their day that I have no clue about. Where do they come from? Is the bus a place of comfort or of stress? Does it maybe not matter at all? I honestly never even think about this part of their lives, so it was an interesting empathy practice. • • • Also I was telling my friends that this girl (one of my former students) holding this sign looked like the cover of a YA graphic novel... she's so cool.
Trying to pretend that I'm not on lunch duty! Though I'm sitting on dusty concrete next to some smelly dumpsters, I'm enjoying reading an interesting book on a beautiful spring day.
Thinking about how much *me* is wrapped up in my teaching. I worked hard to get it that way! Teaching is such a highly personal job because nobody else can be -you- with the kids & the content & etc. I feel like I thrive because my content is Me and my interactions with students are Me & have been since my camp counselor days. I'm just realizing it this semester bc I'm teaching Physical Science which is Not Me!!! (Every physics/chem class I took in college resulted in me crying to my professors!!!!!) I am completely derailed! Feeling so blech all day e'ry day except 1st period Earth Science, my Shining Star. So I'm realizing how much teaching would suck if I couldn't be me... so I guess the silver lining is that this terrible semester has reminded me how much I feel in touch with my teaching self otherwise. Success? I guess. Mostly I just feel as frumpy as I look in this Riverside bathroom mirror selfie with my hair being (poorly) held up by a pencil (not as glamorous as it was made out to be in Pop Culture, tbh).
