short post from an internet cafe in Maui!! Hawaii is great- scuba diving and lying out and general fun things of that nature. up next is Tahoe! I'll be back on August 1st, guys, so don't get too depressed.
xoxo
emma
Thursday, July 14, 2005
there's that thunder again
I'm not very good at packing. I pack too much or too little, and I don't have very good suitcases. It's hard to pack for two consecutive and quite different vacations. Hawaii and Tahoe require different clothing. It's also difficult to organize with a duffel.
So this weird thing has been happening to me lately. I'll think of random poetic lines that describe what is going on around me. For example: fireflies. One time they looked really pretty at Cheerio so I thought of a random line for a poem, but I never want to finish the poem. I'm not a poet so I would ruin the moment if I tried to capture it. Same with pictures. I'm not a photographer so I spend more time being frustrated that I can't capture the moment than I do actually appreciating the moment. Then I listen to John Mayer and it makes me feel happy again. 3x5... I'm hearin' ya, John.
I think this has been happening because of my lack of mental outlet. I'm so used to blogging that I get a bit weird without it. Musings with Emma at camp was kindof like blogging, but I had to make it funny and I had to edit it and it had to be about stuff that everybody can relate to. It was still fun, though. Sometimes it sucked and nobody laughed and I felt like a loser, but other times it was fun and I made people laugh (which was my goal for the summer).
I am ready for college. I'm ready for the experience. Good or bad, over or underrated, boring or exciting, scary or tons of fun, or a mixture of everything, I want to experience it. It's weird, like my mind hasn't settled on the fact that things are going to be different next year. This step seems so natural. I always imagined it as some far off and distant land which will be totally new and scary and different. As it's gotten closer, I've realized that's not the case. It's just the next step in my life. And my bestest friends that I have right now won't be too far away. And I'll make new bestest friends. Because it's inevitable. Yay!!
So this weird thing has been happening to me lately. I'll think of random poetic lines that describe what is going on around me. For example: fireflies. One time they looked really pretty at Cheerio so I thought of a random line for a poem, but I never want to finish the poem. I'm not a poet so I would ruin the moment if I tried to capture it. Same with pictures. I'm not a photographer so I spend more time being frustrated that I can't capture the moment than I do actually appreciating the moment. Then I listen to John Mayer and it makes me feel happy again. 3x5... I'm hearin' ya, John.
I think this has been happening because of my lack of mental outlet. I'm so used to blogging that I get a bit weird without it. Musings with Emma at camp was kindof like blogging, but I had to make it funny and I had to edit it and it had to be about stuff that everybody can relate to. It was still fun, though. Sometimes it sucked and nobody laughed and I felt like a loser, but other times it was fun and I made people laugh (which was my goal for the summer).
I am ready for college. I'm ready for the experience. Good or bad, over or underrated, boring or exciting, scary or tons of fun, or a mixture of everything, I want to experience it. It's weird, like my mind hasn't settled on the fact that things are going to be different next year. This step seems so natural. I always imagined it as some far off and distant land which will be totally new and scary and different. As it's gotten closer, I've realized that's not the case. It's just the next step in my life. And my bestest friends that I have right now won't be too far away. And I'll make new bestest friends. Because it's inevitable. Yay!!
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
and now for some musings...
And I'm back.
I have been since Saturday, but my mind has been running too fast to be able to sit down and post. Now that my room is clean and it's cloudy outside, I can finally calm myself down. It's hard to concentrate with a room that still needs to be cleaned.
Cheerio aftermath hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. Shmims suggested it might be this way because we are about to go off to college; we can look forward to meeting more people and having fun. I ditched the GSW reunion (which was also the last day of Cheerio) mainly because I didn't want to try and shove my Cheerio feelings aside that quickly. And also because I didn't miss everybody that much to pay $20 to see them. Everyone says that Gov's School is the best summer of their life, but they've never experienced Cheerio. Or any camp, for that matter. I also ditched the reunion because I was too emotional and tired. I came home and upon realizing that my new swimsuits weren't exactly the right size, I just sat on my bed and cried. I needed a nap (n^2 and stargazing on the last night kept me up too late) but I really needed to get unpacked. So I dumped everything in my room and have been tripping over it ever since. But today it's clean, thank goodness.
So. Cheerio. It was wonderful. I love all of my friends there and had the most wonderful time. There are many inside jokes, but I'll leave them like that- inside. It had its hard times and awkward times right along with the awesomely fun times. I'm really glad I got to get paid to have so much fun. I also enjoyed the campers- being used to 12-year-olds all summer, I was nervous about having the 14-year-olds, but it was just as much fun. The girls were great.
It's hard to write everything down. So I won't. Let's just say I'm sad to be gone but glad to be back. "To everything turn, turn, turn..." you know.
Surprisingly, I've been hanging out with my friends every night since I got back. This week just so happened to work well for everyones schedules, so we're all free to just chill. It's really awesome. I'm looking forward to Hawaii and Tahoe, too.
Ok, now I'm just rambling. Too much to say, not enough to say about it all, not enough attention span.
I have been since Saturday, but my mind has been running too fast to be able to sit down and post. Now that my room is clean and it's cloudy outside, I can finally calm myself down. It's hard to concentrate with a room that still needs to be cleaned.
Cheerio aftermath hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. Shmims suggested it might be this way because we are about to go off to college; we can look forward to meeting more people and having fun. I ditched the GSW reunion (which was also the last day of Cheerio) mainly because I didn't want to try and shove my Cheerio feelings aside that quickly. And also because I didn't miss everybody that much to pay $20 to see them. Everyone says that Gov's School is the best summer of their life, but they've never experienced Cheerio. Or any camp, for that matter. I also ditched the reunion because I was too emotional and tired. I came home and upon realizing that my new swimsuits weren't exactly the right size, I just sat on my bed and cried. I needed a nap (n^2 and stargazing on the last night kept me up too late) but I really needed to get unpacked. So I dumped everything in my room and have been tripping over it ever since. But today it's clean, thank goodness.
So. Cheerio. It was wonderful. I love all of my friends there and had the most wonderful time. There are many inside jokes, but I'll leave them like that- inside. It had its hard times and awkward times right along with the awesomely fun times. I'm really glad I got to get paid to have so much fun. I also enjoyed the campers- being used to 12-year-olds all summer, I was nervous about having the 14-year-olds, but it was just as much fun. The girls were great.
It's hard to write everything down. So I won't. Let's just say I'm sad to be gone but glad to be back. "To everything turn, turn, turn..." you know.
Surprisingly, I've been hanging out with my friends every night since I got back. This week just so happened to work well for everyones schedules, so we're all free to just chill. It's really awesome. I'm looking forward to Hawaii and Tahoe, too.
Ok, now I'm just rambling. Too much to say, not enough to say about it all, not enough attention span.