The sky has been really pretty lately. I see it and then I just want to lie down in a field and stare up at it forever. I want to have no cares and just sit and think about life and love and happiness while looking at the beautiful sky. I'm in such a prarie-girl mood or something. More like a hippie mood. I'm growing fond of my hairy legs. I really really like to knit. My wardrobe is becoming more consistently hippie. I am starting to hate commercialism- I want to give people presents from my heart and not my wallet. I want to know people for who they are. I want to stop living from assignment to assignment, and read more books. I want to enjoy the time I have right now, not looking too much to the future or too much to the past. I'm searching for depth in all of my interactions. I'm feeling very optimistic or something. I feel like I've become very sage-like lately. I give good advice or something, to myself and to others. More like I don't give good advice to myself, but I soak up advice from what I see or read around me. I think I'm settling into who I really am. I like it. I feel like I'm getting more out of school and learning- like I'm bonding with my schoolwork rather than just getting it done. Hmm. I can't really describe exactly how I am feeling. It's not content, because I am yearning for more than complacency. It's kind of satisfied, but in that not really satisfied way. I'm satisfied that I'm not letting myself be satisfied. It's hard to articulate. But I'm happy- and that's always easy to understand.
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