In the last two weeks I’ve had the most consecutive time off my full time mom job since I started this gig. Byron took the baby to the beach with Gran and Grandpa, then two days after they got back I went to Boston to visit my boo @karabux. What do you think I did when I got the whole house to myself?? Chores, lol! And it was glorious. So one thing I’ve been trying to come to terms with since going back to work full time is the fact that it is not realistic for me to see Bats every moment of his life. Like I’m having to remind myself that he is a different person from me??? I think he has a better handle on the whole situation than me. He was inside my body for 9 months and then he was so utterly dependent (udderly? Lol) on my body for so many months that I’m just sort of on autopilot. One thing that is constant is change!!! And he is growing and moving and I am back at work and it’s awesome but still sort of weird. I am listening to the audiobook “Nightbitch” and it is like MomKafka. A mom turns into a dog? A great commentary on early mom life and how everything starts feeling totally bonkers. Do I feel like I’m turning into another species??? Maybe, lol. I find myself wanting someone to write about what it’s like being a first time mom in Covid. Story time at the library?? I don’t know her. Bats doesn’t really go anywhere in public yet ☹️ maybe we’ll learn the parenting landscape soon, but maybe not……
