Refverie - Busy

 Whew... I honestly don't know how I survived June. Grading in Ohio, the end of the school year, packing up my house, painting a new one, hiring movers for the first time (and realizing I am very ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ about how to pack boxes), going to a 3-day PD conference, packing for Iceland, and now getting ready to board that plane and VACAY! Seriously. Omg. • • • When I was furiously getting a bunch of shit in the backyard ready for the dump, I realized I'd unearthed this robin's nest when it was too late. I was sad but it was also so cute I didn't know how to feel. Once things slow down maybe I'll be able to tap into my actual feelings again... that's something that I have a bad habit of doing- shutting down my emotions when I get busy. I barely even am letting myself feel the immense joy I cerebrally feel for this amazing time in my life, because I'm worried I won't be able to hold it together to get shit done. I'm working on that, though, bc feelings can be an all the time thing, you know?

Refverie - Slack Jaw

 In the last minutes of being 29 you can catch me getting emotional over this sorrowful/beautiful/wrecking song by Sylvan Esso. Life is so big and vast and it overwhelms me with happy & sad all at the same time. 💕 my 20s were so great but I really think my 30s are going to be a whole new kind of beautiful

Refverie - The Entertainer

 This thing happens when people meet me for the first time where they are so surprised when I turn on my entertainer side... like, I seem normal & down-to-earth & maybe sitting back bc I've never met any of them before, but then it's karaoke so I give my all singing every single word to Friday by Rebecca Black. My friends are used to these shenanigans, but people who don't know me all of a sudden see me as simply defined by that silly side... like they start pressuring me to perform at any given moment and they try to make me be funny on command or something. Whenever this happens I get super annoyed and shut down and want to just sit in my room by myself and go into hiding so people stop asking me to tell jokes or sing songs or whatever. Usually my best friends or people I connect with just laugh and then keep treating me like a rando which is honestly my favorite. I'm not trying to steal the show 24/7 and if you hang out with me for a while it gets old & you'd probably want me to chill out honestly. This is all coming up bc I'm in Ohio grading APES exams and last year I did karaoke and wore this cat sweatshirt and this year a bunch of people keep doing that thing I just described above and I am Over It. But I did meet a group of really funny people who don't make me perform but keep being funny back to me and it feels way better and is actually a fun time. • • • Lol the struggles of an entertainer I'm so annoyed at the way I sound talking about this

Refverie - Reminders

 (Photo credit: @glossier) I really love these reminders because they have enough grace while keeping the firmness that I try to use when thinking about my own work. I definitely struggle to do one thing at a time, but I am working at it. That's what's nice about this week grading AP exams in Ohio- from 8 to 5 I have one job, and that's to figure out if the kid answered the question. All these educators are in a room dutifully reading & thinking & processing & deciding, and it's really actually awesome. It's hard to comprehend the scale of these tests though. This many humans exist?!??!!! Wild.